The future...

So, I just started this interior design course. It looks like its going to be VERY intense, but I am hoping to make it through with at least a 95. And hopefully some good contacts out of it. But anyways, for an assignment that I had to turn in today I had to interview an interior designer (or related professional). So I called a few places, finally got someone but spent the next three days calling back to get the designer on the phone. Well, I was able to meet with her today (thank GOD) and after our hour long interview, which was more like a chat, she basically offered me the opportunity to work with her as her assistant design. It will only start out as part time, which is perfect, and i can "get my foot in the door." Or at least get some experience, while I am in school. So that is all great. She probably wouldn't need my help for a few weeks anyways, but after all this talk and excitement, I am DREADING having to leave the kids with someone. Even if it only 2 days a week. Even if it was just one day, but all day. I don't know how I make peace with that. I love my kids more than anything, but this is an incredible opportunity for me and it would be very stupid for me to pass it up. But I will try to look on the bright side and say that it will work itself out by that time.

Turning 22.

Monday is my 22nd birthday. It probably sounds crazy, but I feel like I am turning older than I should be. I mean, it seems like yesterday I met Rosvin and here we are 5 1/2 years later. Time goes by so fast. People that I remember as children are about to be adults. I mean...my baby sitter is 17. I still feel like I'm 17 half the time. Come on now. ITS CRAZY!!!!!!!